Coffee Talk: My Journey – “The 3 Pronged Triad”

  REDUNDANCY. “3-Pronged”  &   “Triad”. Yes.  I know. And using redundancy in naming this entry is quite intentional. Why? Because, truly, it takes being redundant moment by moment, day after day, week after week, to establish habits and to eventually see results in WHATEVER IT IS I choose and you choose to tackle.    WARNING: …

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I Use to Fall …

I use to fall …  down FACE-FIRST And I stayed there–feeling sorry for myself, contemplating quitting, wondering if I was fooling myself to think I have what it takes, coming up with every excuse to stay there – face-down -, convincing myself I was in over my head and had no business attempting this doomed-from-the-start…

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“Chameleon-ing”

It was the 1970’s.  Everyone was doing it. All my friends had that Dorothy Hammill look — even the guys.  It was a bowl haircut and it was COOL!  Of course, it was only cool and it only looked good on certain people with a certain kind of hair.  The kind of hair that was…

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Musings on the Mower…

“I wish I lived, ‘BACK THEN’ “, my youngest daughter often blurts. “BACK THEN?”, I reply with a little “Are you calling me OLD?!?” in my voice. What she means, exactly, is that life seemed to be simpler, sweeter, less technical/digital. And she is right, of course! I’m really glad she notices the difference. As…

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Diary of a Mad Menopausal Women PART II !!!

Perhaps I was only partly in my right mind when I wrote the Diary of a MMW Part I, because ohhhhh there’s so much more! So many wonderful nuggets of information that should be, no … NEED TO BE shared. TMI perhaps? But of course. Because let me tell you … everything about this stage…

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Bully on Your Back

Sssshhhh! Listen …. Do you hear that? Sounds like jeering. Where is it coming from? Sure feels up close and personal, but you look right, then left – just in case. There it is again. Sneering this time – laughing that “AT YOU” kind of laugh meant to make you feel small and powerless –…

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Lyrical Lingu: The Caliginous Night

The following lines are not my own, however, I have pulled together song lyrics and have juxtaposed them into my own, free-flowing thought process … my own interpretative verse. It is, in its entirety, lyrics borrowed from songs that have moved me deeply in relation to my own pain and internal struggles. Maybe you, too,…

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Why I Jumped…

It all began as I was sitting on that Spin bike … this time a participant instead of the instructor … I carry that proverbial weight on my shoulders and realize that my tank of inner angst has reached full capacity. Dark goes the room. Pitch black to match the pitch of blackness I am…

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Perspective Inversa

  Worth -Value-Beauty—- Nothing.  In you there is nothing but Waste.   You ruin Everything good … Nothing about you is Beautiful.   You are the embodiment of Mistakes   Your Mental, emotional, physical characteristics – Have no lasting impact.   Each day  you should disregard your Value.   Shame and regret Overwhelming you … Embrace the Hopelessness, doubts, fears…

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Bird Set Free

We all have a story to tell. There’s hurt and pain in all our camps and somewhere along the line that pile of ash in our hearts can make or break us. My story probably isn’t much different than yours. Perhaps the actual events are different, but that pile of ash is still swept up…

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