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Coffee Talk: My Journey – “The 3 Pronged Triad”

REDUNDANCY. “3-Pronged” & “Triad”. Yes. I know. And using redundancy in naming this entry is quite intentional. Why? Because, truly, it takes being redundant moment by moment, day after day, week after week, to establish habits and to eventually see results in WHATEVER IT IS I choose and you choose to tackle. WARNING: …

The Art of — `K I / N T < S U \ G I , ---

Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall Humpty Dumpty had a great fall All the King’s horses and All the King’s men Couldn’t put Humpty together again. Ever feel like poor ol’ Humpty — sitting there looking at the broken pieces of yourself scattered on the ground? Ever feel like you are shattered — with a…

I Use to Fall …

I use to fall … down FACE-FIRST And I stayed there–feeling sorry for myself, contemplating quitting, wondering if I was fooling myself to think I have what it takes, coming up with every excuse to stay there – face-down -, convincing myself I was in over my head and had no business attempting this doomed-from-the-start…

The shadow PROVES the sunshine!

Have you ever …stopped to consider your own shadow? Always dark, like a black ink spill that takes on a distorted shape — sometimes stretched tall and unnaturally thin in structure or exceptionally wide and oblong — often giving the impression that the object of the shadow is much grander than it really is or…

“Chameleon-ing”

It was the 1970’s. Everyone was doing it. All my friends had that Dorothy Hammill look — even the guys. It was a bowl haircut and it was COOL! Of course, it was only cool and it only looked good on certain people with a certain kind of hair. The kind of hair that was…

Which “I” do I ?

Overwhelmed. Yep. That’s me right now. So many changes – happening all at once. Some good, some not so good, some neutral. Let’s see, perhaps I should list them. Oh, not for your benefit, but for mine so that I can see a little snapshot of what I am attempting to navigate: I am now…

Musings on the Mower…

“I wish I lived, ‘BACK THEN’ “, my youngest daughter often blurts. “BACK THEN?”, I reply with a little “Are you calling me OLD?!?” in my voice. What she means, exactly, is that life seemed to be simpler, sweeter, less technical/digital. And she is right, of course! I’m really glad she notices the difference. As…

Diary of a Mad Menopausal Women PART II !!!

Perhaps I was only partly in my right mind when I wrote the Diary of a MMW Part I, because ohhhhh there’s so much more! So many wonderful nuggets of information that should be, no … NEED TO BE shared. TMI perhaps? But of course. Because let me tell you … everything about this stage…

Bully on Your Back

Sssshhhh! Listen …. Do you hear that? Sounds like jeering. Where is it coming from? Sure feels up close and personal, but you look right, then left – just in case. There it is again. Sneering this time – laughing that “AT YOU” kind of laugh meant to make you feel small and powerless –…

Lyrical Lingu: The Caliginous Night

The following lines are not my own, however, I have pulled together song lyrics and have juxtaposed them into my own, free-flowing thought process … my own interpretative verse. It is, in its entirety, lyrics borrowed from songs that have moved me deeply in relation to my own pain and internal struggles. Maybe you, too,…